For This Child We Have Prayed! (and prayed and prayed :)

18 months, 8 birthmoms and 5 matches later……… I’m proud to introduce our daughter Alexandra Elise White (Allie). She was born December 14th at 3:50 am. She came into this world weighing 4 lbs 12 oz and 18 ½ inches long.

This journey has not been short of a complete miracle by God. Until the very last minute, he was changing hearts and minds to bring this little girl into our home.

We received the call at 1:20 the morning of the 14th to get to the hospital now. So we jumped out of bed called our sitter for Mason and within 15 minutes were heading to the hospital. We were not sure how much we were going to be able to participate in the birth but we were thankful that the birth mom was allowing us to come. When we arrived, they had me go straight back. I walked into full on labor. (That’s to put it mildly). So my 12 weeks of Bradley classes and extensive cheerleading background kicked in immediately. I was going to cheer her on until the end. Within 2 ½ hours, out came our girl.

Crystal (Birth mom) was so gracious and allowed me to take the mommy role on immediately. First, I cut the umbilical cord, which if you know me I’m so proud that I did not pass out. Then I was able to help weigh her, hold her and feed her. It was a magical moment. One of the nurses took my cell phone and videotaped me holding her the first time. On that video, is a very sweet moment between Crystal and I. It is one that I treasure and look forward to showing Allie one day. This was very difficult for Crystal. She truly loves this little girl. She allowed Kevin to come back and see her and we all had special time bonding together.

Our joy was Crystal’s pain. As we rocked this little girl the tears did not stop flowing from Crystal’s eyes. This of course broke our hearts. We didn’t want her to be hurt anymore than she already was. Only as God does, He brought us all a butterfly moment. If you’ve followed my blog, Butterfly moments are those moments when God blesses you with the small things that are very big to you. No one else may notice but you know specifically that the presence of the Lord is there. That is what happened in that hospital room. One of the nurses, 61 years of age, went over to Crystal and held her and shared her story. She said “I understand how you’re feeling Crystal b/c when I was 16 I was pregnant. I chose to place my child up for adoption”. She continued to share her story for the next 10 minutes about how God worked in her life and she knew she was making the right decision. Then she said that her daughter now 35 came back to find her. When she sat down, she thanked her for allowing the opportunity to have the life she did. She told Crystal I couldn’t give her what her adoptive family could and although it was a difficult decision I’m so grateful that I made it.

As you can imagine, there was not a dry eye in the place. The following 10 days have been nothing short of stories just like that one. I would have to write a book to tell you all the amazing miracles God provided. I will say that Satan has been working overtime to try and have all of this fall through but God is so much bigger!!

I think it will take me several months to process all that God has taught me and how I’ve grown during these past two years. The one thing that I know I’ve learned is that God’s timing is not our timing. If we are patient and wait on him, He WILL Blow our socks off. We almost gave up. In fact, we had and God allowed this story to unfold. In brings me to tears to think, I would have missed out on this blessing. God has not only given us the blessing of Allie but of Crystal. I believe God has put her in our lives for the long haul and I’m so grateful. I want Allie to know that she loved her enough to give her a home that she at this time cannot provide. What a picture of God’s love for us. We are all adopted if we are believers in Christ. He knew that we could not save ourselves. He sent his Son as a gift to give us eternal life. As His Father, He watched his son pay the ultimate price so we could be adopted into His family. Thank you Lord for adopting me and opening my heart to adoption!!


*** We have many pictures and videos to come! (We've posted some pics below)