Thank you for the butterflies

I apologize for being M.I.A. from the blog. This past month or so has been very hectic and emotional for me. I can't say it's any particular thing but putting my heart on paper wasn't an option. Mason is doing great!!! It's amazing to me how God chooses to bless you even when you're questioning His every move. Mason had his adenoid surgery two weeks ago. We didn't think much of this surgery as far as recovery went. This by far has been the hardest one for him to bounce back from. We ended up in the ER the day after b/c he was throwing up blood. We are finally on the up swing of it and he is feeling MUCH better. I'm so excited to share with you all the blessings we've seen in his life. Drum roll please....... He rolled over for the first time Friday night! We've put the video below. Three weeks ago he was sitting on his boppy looking at the toys hanging in front of him. For the first time he reached for a toy and put it in his mouth!!! Finally, last night we were watching him on the monitor and he spit out his pacifier and figured out how to use his fists to get it back in his mouth!!!! In all the crazy emotions I've been feeling, I can't ignore the blessings God is pouring out on our family.

We did meet with the invetro doctor and we had some positive and disappointing news. In a nutshell, he had me get tested for the genetic disorder. I will receive the results in 2 weeks from that test. When I met with the genetic counselor she did say she feels they will come back positive. That has been alot to swallow. Even though I felt that I had good grip on my emotions, it is still alot to work through. The only way Kevin and I could have a child together is to create an embryo first and then test it. We believe life begins at conception and therefore this is not an option for our family. We do have a couple of options that are not our first choice but we will continue to pray for God's perfect will.

My heart has also been heavy this month for our precious friends Lindsey and Adam. I put her blog address on the entry below. I want to share a story she shared on her blog. Today is the one year anniversary that Landon was laid in the arms of Jesus. Last Wednesday was his birthday. Lindsey was praying the night before his birthday that God would send a butterfly to them when they went to visit his graveside the next day. She didn't share this with her husband b/c she thought it was a silly request. When they went to visit Landon low and behold on his headstone was a beautiful butterfly. As she looked around, this butterfly was the only one she saw and the entire time they were there it flew around the place where they were standing. Coincidence??? Not a chance. This is a beautiful reminder of God's amazing love for us. Even when life hurts so deeply that we can't breathe, God is there to carry us. His love never ceases to amaze me. He and I have had many heart to hearts this month. It has been one of those times I just needed him to carry me. He has done that in an amazing way. Today, if you need a butterfly moment, don't hesitate to ask b/c He has one waiting for you!